Damage
by TLC

I know I'm kind of strange
to you sometimes
don't always say
what's on my mind
you know that I've been hurt by some guy
but I dont wanna mess up this time
and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think I'm kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you
my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I might look through you're stuff
for what I don't want to find
or I might just set you up
to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid
from what I've been through
you don't know what you've got yourself into
and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think im kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you
my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
i'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged


this song doesn't only apply to anyone who falls in love and later on, one who become damaged and heart broken......

whew... i remember aldrich.. he gave me a cd with this song... i really like it...

well, i had this one day of assessment about evrything that happened to me these past days..

i was hurt... i had hurt other people...

well, i went to mass last sunday..
it was so cold that i barely embraced myself to feel a little warmth...
i stared at the gigantic cross with that magnificent sculpture of Jesus Christ on it...
our church is really one heck of wasting a lot of money to produce a MALL-like place of worship
going back,i felt this cold wind running through my hair,my skin, and it made me feel something.

i was alone... my sister was on the other side and i was praying alone...

i asked myself... am i happy?

yes, i was... i am...

but what made me think that i am not?

i stared again at the cross and realized that i was hurting him, her....

the gospel said that if i would want to follow HIM, i should have to take up his cross and follow hIM....

i am complete in some ways.. i have strengths which others don't have...

and so, i should understand and share those completeness...

this doesn't only apply on love... friendship also counts...

SHE was my friend...

i was so sincere that she was a friend to me..
we shared thoughts, laughters, fashion stuffs...

we hang out together.. we had pictures together...

i believed in her... i admired her for being tough..
imagine a woman of strong character without a man on his side?

she really don't have to find for one... she can be good thou she's alone..

better i guess....

suddenly, a raging storm ruined that friendship..
the man involved has moved on..

we have our own lives to focused on..

and so she has her own too..

she wrote me a letter which i managed to keep until now..
when i got home, i read it over and over....

i find myself silent and disappointed...

she told me that she had learned the best lessons in life...
that nobody could understand her...
that she was wrong on thinking negative things bout me...
that she would miz me....

oh... how i wish she could be that sweet girl again..
yeah, she was really sweet and concern whenever i feel sad or wut...

why?... i shouldn't be feeling pissed of when the storm came in again..
it was over... the after shock should be ceased...

we both have lives to think about..
rumors would kill a heart...
it may ruin a good heart...

she is a good person whom i know is just looking for a home that would accept her from all her waeknesses...

i'm not speaking only for myself...

i know we're not getting any younger.. we have matured stuffs to engaged upon..

sayang kc.. mahalaga sakin ang pagkakaibigan...

cguro yan ang isa sa mga bagay na kaya kong ibigay ng buong puso at walang pagkukunwari.

katulad yan pag nagmamahal ang isang rona...

ayoko ng makaramdam ng kahit anong galit...

kung galit ka man, o sha, i'm sorry...

alam kong masakit..nasaktan kita...

sana maintndihan mo, d2 ako masaya..
hndi ko pipiliting mgicp ka ng mabuti skin..

pero e2 lng.....


i've been damaged but im doing my best to stand up and face you again with a heart.


so long...