SELFISH

I just don't understand
Why you're running from a good man baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself babe
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you
You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?
I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize (realize)
After you there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?
You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want is to give you love
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you..
To prove that I'm the only one for you
that I'm the only one for you
So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish,
So what's wrong with being selfish...

hi... uhm...just waiting 4 sum1 when i decided to blog nlng..

our house was like exploding with music... my mum's friends were practicing for a dance number needed for their xmas party...

so i just went out and now i'm here at festi... daming tao..grrr..
what would i expect...itz xmas time...

i was really sad yesterday... i'm sorry if it seemz like i only get to blog when i'm down.. but yeah, i still blog when i'm happy..

my dad and i chat almost everyday...
i'm starting to notice something..
i hope it won't get there..

so long..ciao

hi! itz been a long time...

d2 ko comp shop labas ng skul..

i'm near of having colds... ayoko ng magkasakit...im nt yet fully recovered...

uhm... wat are my updates...

1. ok na defense.. minor revisions kme..we're still working on it..thank God

2. next i'll be concentrating on my OJT

3. tapos na exams

4. i feel happy....

5. the other side feels sad...

well, things are not so easy as anyone could just see it on the peripheral..
ok ang studies ko... i got no problem except my OJT that i have to finish... it'z quite driving me to transfer another workplace but yeah, i have to be patient... imagine, i have classes on monday and thurs and in between those days, i'll be going to Makati for that weehee, OJT...

patience...


i miss my dad.. i miss the times when i would just sit on his lap...

i was his baby lil gurl...now, i'm twenty...

a young lady...

i remember my high school life w/o his presence....
it was hard...
u know, i was strong enough to fight..
what gave that kind of inspiration was the pain of my mama who always project how strong she was thou i know, she was hurting..


God is really good...i'm still proud that i became who i am now because of them...


thanks...i have nothing so much to say..

Take My Breath Away - Jessica Simpson
Watching every motion
In my foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away


Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am un-afraid

Take my breath awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!


damn... itz been a while.....

im so bc with a lot of thingy....hahayyyyy...
how i wish i could back to the times when i would just relax and have fun the whole day...
of corz without thinking of other stuffz...

i can feel the pressure now...
and it do suckz...
i want to spend a day with a quiet place just like i did a week ago...3 days ago..

ang bilis ng oras... parang hinahabol ka plagi...
sana maayos na ang dapat maayos...
thesis nmen... gudluk sa lhat..

so long!!!!

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE....


how i wish i could say and live by this meaning always..
for always is longer than forever..
and as one person forgives.... peace would follow....

my heart is melting for so many reasons...

God help me...

i'm so tired of all our school works..
i can't give myself a break and i'm near of getting sick..

ILOVEYOU.....GOODBYE
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh, I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye



i don't know how to start...
my head is really aching..

this is the saddest and most painful birhtday i ever had... :'(
things would turn to be something wonderful if only....

but this is the reality.... i am hurting...
i hope i could compose myself at once...
i'm asking God for utmost guidance and strength..

there's really one line between LOVE and HATRED...
2 years is 2 years...
i have no regrets...
i just can't help but cry everytime...
why did God created people who don't know how to analyze and understand..
who misjudge something irrationally..
who love so unconditionally and later on throw that love away..

to you, who broke my heart and whom i've hurt,
I'm SORRY...
alam kong galit na galit k skin...
pero wla kng karapatang saktan ako ng gan2!!!
damn it!!
i'm not ur wife...
u don't own me..
wala kng karapatang itrato ako na parang wala kng kwentang tao.

hindi ako masamang tao..ang tanging pagkakamali ko lng ay...
binigay ko ang lahat at walang tinira para sa sarili ko..

at ngaun nawawala ako...ni hindi mo ako magawang tulungan..
pagod na kong suyuin ka...
intindihin lahat ng kahinaan mo..
tinanggap kita pero ano...
inabuso mo lahat...
napuno lng cguro ako...
naging masikip ang mundo para sating dalawa...

waaahhh.... i hate you !!

u'll pay 4 everything...lahat ng pananakit na un babalik sau!!
learn to respect women...
hindi na ko magtataka kung balang-araw, bumalik lahat sau to.

alam ng Diyos kung ilang ulit kong inisip lahat ng bagay tungkol sau...
para lng wag kang masaktan at maging masaya ulit tau...

alam nya kung gano kita kamahal pero anong ginawa mo?...
wala akong ibang hiniling noon kundi maging masaya kasama ka.
sa lahat ng oras dahil ikaw ang buhay ko...

hindi lang ikaw ang nagbigay ng buhay mo... ako man...
ung sakin nlng ibi2gay ko pa sau..

gan2 nga KABABAW ang pagmamahal na hindi marunong makinig
at lalong umintindi...

katulad ng pangako ko... at lagi kong hinihiling....
alam mo un...marunong akong tumupad..

love will always find a way..
cnsbi k sau gel ng paulit-ulit.
walang magagawa ang ibng tao pag gnus2..
this is worth fighting for at papatunayan ko yan!


this is it!!

happy bdy to me...

wishes...

enduring happiness..

healthy life....

success....


how i wish i could turn back the last nineteen years of my life....
i'm not a teenager anymore but i know it doesnt look like one..
well, i guess i'll be facing a greater challenge..ilove it.
it makes me whole... itz sumtin that indicates my being rona.
i'm a strong woman....

well.... kahit na madaming problema, alam kong kaya ko lahat 2..

i still have my friends.... kung wala cla ewan ko nlng..

of course, the love and warmth of my family makes me feel secured..
they believe in me...someday, ill make their efforts well paid off.

my dada will be coming home again..wahhh... uwian ako..hirap pa nman nun..

but the moment of being together with my family, its priceless....

pls God, enlighten my mind.... let me use it in the most sensible yet loving way....

uhm, galing pla kme sa bar kgbi...i was happy..kasama ko mga old klasm8s from hiskul..

esp cna ivy at elaine... khit short time lng...

well..thats it for now, alis p kme... manllibre pa ko.. hay nakakainis..

lovelots

Stick Around
by Azure

How many times do I daydream
About making love to you
I'll take you to a special place
Where it's only me and you
I'll put away all your troubles
On the other side of the world
And wrap my arms around you, Gel
And tell you you're my man
(So let's go sail away in the night)
And we'll go far away from here
(To a place where our love is right)
Can I take you to my world?
Chorus
Whenever you're sad
Whenever you're crying
I'll be the one who wipes away your tears
Whenever you're cold
Whenever you need me
I'll be the one who runs to you
And give you my love
Will you know how much I love you
So you better not let me down
I'm not asking for too much
Baby, just stick around
A quiet day in the country
Or a rainy night in my room
We'll hide away into the sheets
If the morning comes too soon
An afternoon in your eyes
Or a lifetime in your heart
Forever just ain't long enough
But at least it's a good start
(Falling deeper in love with you)
Will you be there to catch me boy?
(I hope your falling deep with me too)
Can I keep you in my world?
Chorus
Forever, forever
Ooh.. would you come on baby
(let's go sail away in the night)
And we'll go far away from here
(Tell you that's where our love is right)
Ooh..

this is the song running through my head...i keep on taking a deep breathe and sigh hoping that everything will be blown up just like that...

itz so good to know that someone is always there to wrap his hands around you, letting you feel that life is always easy..

can i keep you in my world where you and me are the only one living? without all the idea of studies...work... and work....i wish i can go back to myself again...

i'll be turning to a more matured stage of my life..wala na ko sa teenage bracket..
madaming expectations lalo n skin...sana magawa ko un...

hhaayyyy... sna napatawad mo na ko kng ano man un...

so long...

i'm happy...ok na kme ni ara... i didn't expect how it come out..

para kmeng mga bata.. natawa nlng sa lahat ng nangyari..

misconceptions.. misinterpretations...

hayy.... napapangiti nlng ako...

tama na talaga lahat....masaya ko..

dami namen gngwa..naddaisy na ko...

we had our shoot then i'm working on my special cases..

natapos na, ngaun lng... my eyes are so tired...

malapit na bday ko...


wishes...

ippost ko pag mahaba time...

wahhh........ no words....

Damage
by TLC

I know I'm kind of strange
to you sometimes
don't always say
what's on my mind
you know that I've been hurt by some guy
but I dont wanna mess up this time
and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think I'm kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you
my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I might look through you're stuff
for what I don't want to find
or I might just set you up
to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid
from what I've been through
you don't know what you've got yourself into
and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think im kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you
my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
i'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged


this song doesn't only apply to anyone who falls in love and later on, one who become damaged and heart broken......

whew... i remember aldrich.. he gave me a cd with this song... i really like it...

well, i had this one day of assessment about evrything that happened to me these past days..

i was hurt... i had hurt other people...

well, i went to mass last sunday..
it was so cold that i barely embraced myself to feel a little warmth...
i stared at the gigantic cross with that magnificent sculpture of Jesus Christ on it...
our church is really one heck of wasting a lot of money to produce a MALL-like place of worship
going back,i felt this cold wind running through my hair,my skin, and it made me feel something.

i was alone... my sister was on the other side and i was praying alone...

i asked myself... am i happy?

yes, i was... i am...

but what made me think that i am not?

i stared again at the cross and realized that i was hurting him, her....

the gospel said that if i would want to follow HIM, i should have to take up his cross and follow hIM....

i am complete in some ways.. i have strengths which others don't have...

and so, i should understand and share those completeness...

this doesn't only apply on love... friendship also counts...

SHE was my friend...

i was so sincere that she was a friend to me..
we shared thoughts, laughters, fashion stuffs...

we hang out together.. we had pictures together...

i believed in her... i admired her for being tough..
imagine a woman of strong character without a man on his side?

she really don't have to find for one... she can be good thou she's alone..

better i guess....

suddenly, a raging storm ruined that friendship..
the man involved has moved on..

we have our own lives to focused on..

and so she has her own too..

she wrote me a letter which i managed to keep until now..
when i got home, i read it over and over....

i find myself silent and disappointed...

she told me that she had learned the best lessons in life...
that nobody could understand her...
that she was wrong on thinking negative things bout me...
that she would miz me....

oh... how i wish she could be that sweet girl again..
yeah, she was really sweet and concern whenever i feel sad or wut...

why?... i shouldn't be feeling pissed of when the storm came in again..
it was over... the after shock should be ceased...

we both have lives to think about..
rumors would kill a heart...
it may ruin a good heart...

she is a good person whom i know is just looking for a home that would accept her from all her waeknesses...

i'm not speaking only for myself...

i know we're not getting any younger.. we have matured stuffs to engaged upon..

sayang kc.. mahalaga sakin ang pagkakaibigan...

cguro yan ang isa sa mga bagay na kaya kong ibigay ng buong puso at walang pagkukunwari.

katulad yan pag nagmamahal ang isang rona...

ayoko ng makaramdam ng kahit anong galit...

kung galit ka man, o sha, i'm sorry...

alam kong masakit..nasaktan kita...

sana maintndihan mo, d2 ako masaya..
hndi ko pipiliting mgicp ka ng mabuti skin..

pero e2 lng.....


i've been damaged but im doing my best to stand up and face you again with a heart.


so long...

S T A Y
CUESHE

I believe
We shouldn’t let the moment pass us by
Life’s too short
We shouldn’t wait for the water to run dry
Think about it
Cause we only have one shot at destiny
All I’m asking
Could it possibly be you & me?
So if you’d still go,
I’ll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you’ll stay, I’ll hold your hand
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Time has come
For us to go, our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today
I feel so cold
Feel so numb I’m having nightmares but I’m awake
Help me Lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away
So if you’d still go, I’ll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to
And if you’ll stay, I’ll hold your hand
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you
So if you’d still go, I’ll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you’ll stay, I’ll hold your hand
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Now that you’re gone, I’m all alone
I’m still hoping that you would come back home
Don’t care how long, but I’m willing to wait
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you


this is enough to say what i feel....
love waits....
im hurting but its ok..
parte lhat 2...

i jes wana bang my head on the wall...

it rily sucks when i couln't think right....

ang sakit2....

it seemz like this week is running so fast...

things are happening like a whirlwind....

i gota lot of problems... i dunno how to carry all those w/o losing hope....

1) thesis namen- help me God..
2) jerzon might leave the dorm....
3) electricity bill- damn it!!!
4) deadlines- it do suckz!!!
5) heart- i jes wana have a numb heart.

God, plz help me overcome these problems...
i already experienced the most painful a woman could ever experience..
i'm still here, fighting for my life to be happy and fulfilled...

my inspiration- my family....
in a month, my dad will be coming home.. too bad it wouldnt be on my bday...
well, bday nman nya... i will do everything to make him the happiest man on earth..
i love him...

i think i'm sick of somethin i don't know...

waaahhhh, itz all in my mind...

damn it!!!

i'm sorry to God if i'm forgetting some of my obligations as a Christian....

i couldn't go to church...i'll try this sunday...

i miss my friends.. elaine and ivy....

it'z been months since we last got together...

where are they?....

damn it again.... i'm starting to lose my social life...

thou i'm proud that i'm a deans lister, still it would be nothing if my friends are missing...

sana mabalik na ung mga bagay na nagawa ko dati.....

ung parang walang problema...wlang mashadong inaalala...
ung pede akong pumunta kahit saan na walang hinhintay na oras...

sana....

sa taong nasaktan ko, nasasaktan ko- im sorry....
bkit ba gan2? ang gulo ko talaga...

sana maaus na lahat..sana maintindihan nyo ako...

SHOUT OUTZ!!!!

RONA!!!!!!!!!!!! KAYA MO YAN!!!!!!!

Mananatili
by Freestyle
album:
paano magagawa limutin ang sandali
yakap kita sa king piling
hanggang katapusan walang ibang sasabihin
kundi -
pag-ibig ko sa yo'y mananatili
hindi magbabago,
ito'y sa iyo lagi
habang umiikot pa ang mundo
iibig lang sa iyo
pag-ibig ko'y mananatili...
pinakatatangi at di ka maalis
sa isip ko sa buhay ko
wala nang makapagpapasigla sa buhay ko
sana'y malaman mo na -
pag-ibig ko sa yo'y mananatili
hindi magbabago,
ito'y sa iyo lagi
habang umiikot pa ang mundo
iibig lang sa iyo
pag-ibig ko'y mananatili...



para sau.......

im starting to weigh things in a more objective way....

what's important now is to focus on myself again and i will do that next week.

hopefully, makaya ko sha dahil mahirap tlgang mgisa...

but i am alone most of the time....

thinking independently.....

doing things on my own....

maling mali ako dahil hndi ko lubos inisip na naka2sakit na ko ng sobra...

dapat inisip ko un....

mas maluwag na matatanggap ng lahat kung pannindigan ko ung hiningi ko..

ang hanapin ang sarili ko na walang tulong ng iba....

sana sa paraang un mawala ang kahit anong galit o poot...

kung cno man ang anjan pa rin sa kabila ng lahat at mahal ako....salamat....

pag handa na ulit ako, sana maging maaus na ang lahat...

nasisiguro kong magiging masaya ang dapat sumaya.....

salamat sa mga taong nagbigay liwanag sa isip ko...sa mga umuntog skin para magcing...

sa mga nakinig sa mga kwento ko... at nakiiyak sakin...

S-A-L-A-M-A-T P-O

How Do You Heal A Broken Heart
I can't believe what i just heard
Could it be true
Are you the man I thought I knew
The one who promised me his love
Where did it go
Does anybody ever know
Chorus:
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh noI just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
Oh no
Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go
And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in love
With her own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you'd never say

"I'M SoRRY".........

alam kong ako ang dahilan ng lahat ng kalungkutan mo..
alam kong nsaktan kita...
sana nman ako ang intindihin mo...
hindi ko alam kung pano ko magpapaliwanag ng makikinig ka...
wag sanang mabalot ng poot ang puso mo...
Mahal kita, at hindi un basta basta mawawala....
dahil kahit mamatay ako ngaun o bukas.....
hindi un magbabago.... mananatili un....
hnding hindi maglalaho....
panahon nlng ang makakpagsabi ng lahat....
ayokong mgsalita ng tapos...
merun pa kong kahilingan sa Diyos...
ang umaaus ang lahat...
ang magtagpo ang mga puso natin kung tama na ang mali...
kung hndi man, hiling kong maging masaya ka....
ganap na masaya...
wag mong sabhing ako lang ang maka2pagbigay nun...

sa anghel na bumaba mula sa langit, salamat...

The Day You Said Goodnight
Hale
Take me as you are
Push me off the road
The sadness I need this time to be with you
I’m freezing in the sun
I’m burning in the rain
The silence I’m screaming
Calling out your name
And I do
Reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye
To be is all I got to be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight
The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why
I never would have known
Oblivion is falling down
If you could only know me
Like your prayers at night
then everything between you and me will be alright
She’s already taken
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
The day you said goodnight

my tears are flowing just like this...god, help me.. i'm so sad that i make someone's life so miserable..
pls take me to the right path.. CONFUSE....damn it..damn this heart.. damn me... damn me for being like this...
was it really my fault?..... i never wanted to hurt other people...
truth- i don't know how to say it... if i would just hurt others again, why should i say it in a nice way?...
pareho lang un, masakit prin...
ayoko na... hindi lang kau ang nahihirapan....
ako ang pinakanahihirapan...
kanino ba ang kanino?!!
tell me...........!!!

i just couldn't help it... everybody is looking for him..
the whole world is asking me....
damn....
i am not his tail...
i am not his wings...

there was this lady who sat beside us last saturday..
she just enlightened up my mind not to be so harsh on myself..
i kept on blaming myself for everything which was never right.
she said, " if the man truly loves you, he will definitely let u fly with your own wings and
will try to understand you that life is not being with someone else dependently, it's more of growing individually...."

if ever he would fall for someone else, it's merely the consequence of your decision..
damn, it rily suckz to know that someday, somehow, everything is OVER....
i don't want to say its final... i don't want to put a dot on it...
life is moving....
derz so much to think about rather than to stay in grieve and misery...

she emphasized that love is not just being contented, it's having this kind of excitement that
will make your relationship thrilling and interesting...

well...she's oh so right... love is not loving at all when itz just one way..
when it holds the love tightly that it couldn't breathe...

i am very positive in the way i see my life now..
i am growing.... on my own.....
without someone intruding...
more with someone inspiring...
it feels so good to be carefree...

i'm still searching for an answer...
i just want that man to be honest...
damn that gurl...
they are all liars!!
and so he is....
i just read something which made me think more that he's such a coward...

why?.... let me prove it to you some time....

kAiLan kAya MapaPansiN
M.Y.M.P.
Bakit kaya nangangamba
Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita
Sana nama'y magpakilala
Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga
Aklat kong dala'y pinulot mo pa
'Di ka pa rin nagpakilala

REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin
Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala
Dito'y mayroon sa puso ko
Munting puwang laan sa 'yo
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CHORUS
Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin

Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala


para yan sa mga taong naghahangad mapansin...
mga taong pag-ibig lang ang hinihintay dumating para maging ganap na masaya.
bakit nga ba may mga nilalang na manhid...
mga walang pakialam kung ganoo sila nakakasakit.. nakakasakal...
bakit kelngan pang magmahal kung balang araw iiwan ka at iiwan mo sha...
bakit ba nasasaktan nang ikwa lng nakakaalm kung bakit....

sana paggising ko, maging ganap na kong masya..
walang magagalit... walang makikialam...
walang mgsasalita ng kahit ano laban sakin...

sana marami akong puso....
para mapagbigyan ko lahat ng my gusto nito...
sana.....

alam ng Diyos na hindi ko ginustong makasakit ng kahit cno...
sana maintindihan ako ng lahat...
e2 ang buhay ko....
ako lng to...
simple lng ang gusto ko...
maging masaya ng walang hadlang...
walang pag-aalinlangan....

after seeing his eyes.... i felt so sad.....
i know that i'm the one who makes his life miserable now...
what im gonna do?....
how i wish i can break down into two or break myself into pieces
so i cud give myself to those who need me...
but i can't...
i'm just human... i need space and the time to breathe and discover myself..
supposedly, it will be our 2nd year anniversay next month...
people seem to think that were more than that...
we were always together...
i can't remember any moment he left me...
he was in my system for that long....
that when i close my eyes, i would still think of him....
nothing is permanent in this world...
people really come and go....

alam kong mahal nya ko....
alam kong nahihirapan sha....
alam kong umiiyak sha....
alam kong gusto na nyang maaus 2 lahat...
nginitian nya ko na parang bagong kakilala...
bakit ganun?...
i'm praying hard na sana lumiwanag na po ung isip ko...

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!

Is it your heart
Oh, breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do?....

yes, i can do something.... i can give myself again...
pero pano na ko?...
mawawala ako...baka hindi ako makabalik...
the whole world is against me dhil sa decision ko...
lahat cla ayaw to...
dahil napakalaking kawalan ng isang taong handang ibigay lahat para sau...
na kahit sarili nyang kaligayahan ibibigay mapasaya ka lng...
walang katulad, walang makakahigit dahil isa lng sha...

isang taong minahal ko ng lubos at tapat....
isang taong tinanggap ko ng buong-buo...
hindi pala minahal.. dahil hanggang ngaun, nasa ugat ko
prin un pagmamahal na un..
at lagi kong mararamdaman hanggang sa huli...

despite this, i am happy....
masayang tanging ako lng makakapgpaliwanag...
sana pareho kme ng nararamdaman..
sana handa nya kong ipaglaban...
sana.......
the smile, the touch and every gestures make me well....
waaahhh... ...

"masaya kba?....
opo...
bkit?....
hndi ko alam...
basta masaya ko...
parang kulang lahat ng oras...
kc 7:20 na..."
hahahaha....

i don't know how to describe how i feel...


i'm just like a bird......

make me smile.....


let the world understand me...

i'm happy with this...

i just can't get enough of it....

wahhhh........ wahhh.....

words aren't enough again...


Over time, I’ve building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I’ve gone much too far for you now to say
That I’ve got to throw my castle away
Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I’ve been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day
And though you don’t believe that they do
They do come trueFor did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me
Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I’ve searched to discover
I’ve come much too far for me now to find
The love that I’ve sought can never be mine
And though you don’t believe that they do
They do come trueFor did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me
And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like i
Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you

wahhh..GOd help me... im so sad....

u know wut?... we went at basil's place last nyt to watch I-witness...

we were so glad to meet fahad...his brother.. he let us realized that life isn't so sweet at all..hehehe

we will meet again Bro until we don't need anything from you....

i'm so sleepy....

where is the love?.....

tell me where please....

sana bumaba na ung angel ko...:'(

Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was going through
All the time we were apart
I thought of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same
*Especially for you*
I wanna tell you
I was feeling that way too*
And if dreams were wings, you know
*I would have flown to you*
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that I'm next to you
*No more dreaming about tomorrow*
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
It's all because of you

And now we're back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you
Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me*
How I'm certain that our love was meant to be*
You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now that I'm next to you*
I've waited long enough to find you*
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
Oh, And I wanna bring out all the love inside you,
Oh You were in my heart
My love never changed

hi guyz..i'm dorming...huhuhuuhu..i miz my family a lot...
well i'll continue this some other time.

Tell Me Where It Hurts
Just tell me where it hurts now baby,
And I'll love you with a love so tender
And if you let me stay
I'll love all the hurt away
Why is that sad look in you eyes
Why are you crying
Tell me now tell me now
Tell me why you're feeling this way
I hate to see you so down
Oh baby is it your heart
Ooh Breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now tell me
And I'll love you with a love so tender
And if you let me stay
I'll love all the hurt away
Girl tell me, where are all those tears coming from
Why are they fallin'
Did somebody somebody leave your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold
give me a chance to put back all the pieces
Take your broken heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now tell me
And I'll love you with a love so tender
And if you let me stay
I'll love all the hurt away
Baby, If you'd only tell me where it hurts
I know I can make it better.
If I could wrap my arms around your heart
I'd would hold you tight,
and let you know everything is gonna be allright.
So take a chance with me baby.
I dont wanna see you cry.
Is it your heart
Ooh that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything I can do
Tell me where it hurts now baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now tell me
And I'll love you with a love so tender
And if you let me stay
I'll love all the hurt away

I Kno
I don't need to own a fancy car
To drive with you around the city
I don't need to live in a palace like house
A simple home is enough for me
I don't need much
Only your attention
I had to hope
To make me feel that
I am not alone
I know
Is you my life is worth living
I know
Is you my life is gonna be just fine
I know
If you each day begins with a smile
I don't really have to worry
Somethings won't workout for me
I don't really have to bother
Just as long as you here with me
I don't need much
Only your affection
To see me through
To make me feel that
I am not alone
I know
Together we can make our dreams come true
I know
But through the years we won't be growing old
I know
Counting stars won't be so hard to do
There will be your always time
At the end of the tumble shine
Our love for each other never fails
Baby I just know (I know) I know
(I know)
I know... wooahh..
I know (I know) I know (I know) wooahh...
I don't need much
Only your affection
To see me through
To make me feel that I am not alone

pag naririnig ko 2, kinikilig ako..hehehe..bakit?....ewan ko!!!

hi there... june na po...
i'm not yet ready..still have this problem which i would know tom kung massolve o hindi..
wwwhehheeew..judgement day na...and i had sleepless nights....
i hope tom everything in my life would be settled..

i am very sentimental now that i feel how my dad longs to be with us..
we talked for an hour about so many things...
he txted me that he has nothing to ask for, and i don't need to return any favor...
the man of my life is very happy and contented for having me as his daughter...
i couldn't help but cry while reading his message....
i'm very blessed for having him....

well, galing kme kina Cye kanina, high school frend at nursing ngaun sa lasalle din...
busog tlga ko- jes love pizza....
hehehe- c joy ang my sala, kaya kme napadpad dun...
ung maltese na dog ni cye- ang cute cute- britney ung name...
pero ung katulong nila BRETney ang tawag...bisaya yata..
merun din clang alagang parrot na laging ngssabi na YUCK...
pati ung BRETney nagaya nung parrot...

well, i'm not so excited this coming school year..
alam kong mas madaming pressure....
i have one goal, to finish my studies with flying colors...
i'm dedicating this to God, my parents and all the people who supported me all through out...

opefully, makalipat na ko sa dorm this monday...
hayyy... pls lord...

hi there....it's been a while...
well, i feel so alone now..i dunno why...
maybe becoz my mum and i are still on the rockz...
we just cudnt understand each other..
i'm trying... i swear....

why do people seem to take me for granted?
pag kelngan ako anjan cla..
pag wla clang kausap ha2napin nila ko..
pag wlang ksma..wlang mapagssbihan ng problema......
lhat ng un kaya kong ibigay ng hndi nila ssbhin skin..
but why they cnt just come to me for no reason...
or those people just miz me.. nothing more...

i'm tired of them... ivy is an exemption because she's my bestfriend.. well, hndi nya alm na iba tlga nara2mdaman ko
sa ginawa nya sakin...
*sigh*

but for those who happened to be my friend and just wana tok 2 me...
why?....
i cud always share my time and be part of your day...
pero ung maramdaman kong ha2napin mo lng ako pag kelngan mo ko,dats 2 much!!!

in 2 days time, it will be ryan's bday...
i just wana take dis opportunity to talk about the only man who had loved me so deep or shud i say loving me so deep...

he's one of the best thing that ever happened to me..
wala shang katulad... walang sawa nyang pinapakita kung ano sha..
no pretensions..yan c ryan, magaling makisama sa lahat ng tao..
lahat ga2win mapatawa lng ako at makita lng nya kong nakangiti
ayaw nyang umiiyak ako kya khit kontra sha sa lhat ng cnsabi ko,
napa2tahan din nya ko....
madaming bagay na kmeng pinagsamahan...
hndi kc kme nahi2ya sa isa't-isa..we can be ourselves when wer 2geder..sa knya nga ko nahawa ng pagiging matakaw..kung gano kadami kinakain nya, ganun din ako... kahit d halata sa katwan ko at sha lang ang 2mataba..hehehe..wag maga2lit ha...
hindi alam ng lahat na iyakin sha pag ng-aaway kme..parang ako lagi lumalabas na nangaapi at sha ang kawawa... sabi nga nya nung past life namen slave ko daw sha...naga2lit ako pag cnsabi nya un...

sha rin ung tao na pag nadu2mihan eh naiinis at naiirita tlga..kahit ung mahal nyang kotse at motor ang nadumihan, nakaw.....dat only means na magaling sha mag-alaga...

ayaw nyang nauulanan ako, nagka2sakit, malungkot at iba pang negative na bagay na pedeng mangyari skin...kya kulang nlng buhatin nya ko para lng wag ako mapagod at masaktan....

napatunayan ko din na kahit anong kahiya hiya ang gawin ko na alm nina joy at krystel, hindi nya ko iiwan...hehehehe...
imagine nung pagod na ko maglakad sa mall, binuhat nya ko hanggang kotse...walang pakialam yan kahit pagtinginan pa kme ng buong mundo..
ang mahalaga sa knya, masaya ko..

kahit na anong pagsu2ngit ko sknya, matiyaga pa rin shang intindihin ako... ewan ko ba kung bakit gnyan nya ko kamahal...

basta ang alam ko nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil alam kong lagi shang anjan para sakin...

Ryan Eleuterio Biteranta is a man
you really can't afford to hurt...
kahit lagi kong ginagawa un sknya....
i feel sorry 4 it....

hapi bday to you.......

Falling
Everytime I think of you
The man all my life been waiting
There's nothing that I'd rather do
Than love you endlessly
Don't know what you see in me
Boy you bring out the best in me
And I realize when I look in your eyes
There's nothing that I can do
[Chorus:]
Catch me I'm falling
Head over heels in love with you
Oh bless me falling
And no one can do
Catch me I'm falling
And my heart is like brand new
I'm falling in love, falling in love
With you
Everytime I see your face
Its like sunshine on a cloudy day
Its a feeling that can't be replaced
Like the feeling when we embrace
Out of everything that you do to me
For your love I'll do almost everything
And I realize when I look in your eyes
There's nothing that I cannot do
[Chorus]
Now tell me how much you love me
And show me how much you need
I'm waiting right here for you
Whenever you need
I'm falling, falling, falling in love with you

hi der... i jes enrolled and it was really a disaster...
imagine, i was there around 1 pm and i finished enrolling at 5 pm..
when i was about to pay, NAGSARA bigla!!!!
kung nagla2kad ako from JFH to Admin going to CBA- cguro umaapoy na ko sa inis!!!
itz gud i was riding a car...
til now, the system of Lasalle SUCKS!!!!
excuse me for saying this, ung mga taong in charge parang gus2 nila hinahabol cla.
kung kanikanino ka ipa2sa... ngkkwen2han.... tpos bigla kang iiwanan.
ang haba2 ng pila!!! bakit cla gnun.......

not all of them know that i've been through a lot before i went to school..
my mum and i had a big fight...
i cried... as in parang bata...
how i wish she could understand...i know she did dahil nasabi ko na ang dapat..
mashado na kong nagiging mabait sa mga taong nasa paligid ko..
tama na cguro un....

ngapply na rin kme ni joy kanina para sa discount... sana maaprove, 50 % din un...
at least, mum will be happy....pag gan2ng nga2way kme, i'm mizin my dad a lot..
sana my nagta2nggol skin..my nageexplain para skin...
he's very open-minded... i always feel secured whenever he's beside me...

e2 lng masa2bi ko sa napakabait kong ina-
"pls. understand... i'm doing these because of you"
mahal ko kc kau, sobra!!!

i just came to school to fix some stuffs... i still didn't add my last subject... i'm praying hard for my P.E. class...
damn that P.E. class (Swimming)... kung naba2sa lang to ng mga naka2kilala skin, im sure they wud laugh out loud....
sa2bihin dn ni joy na, "nakoh c rona katalitalino di ggraduate dahil sa swimming..." waaahhhhhh..
even my mum wud tell me this, "anak, aucn mo yang swimming mo ha....bka sis mo lng umakyat ng stage"

huhuhuhuhuhuh... how i wish i cud escape it...damn it!!!!

well, summer is not yet over and i feel that i'm not over my confusion...
but guys, i'm happy with what i have now....still thankful of so many things...

God is really good... i feel pity with the fire victims near my former alma mater- Don Carlo Cavina School which is run by nuns who became my guidance councilors since then..

kaya cguro ako gan2, takot gumawa ng masama..takot makasakit ng ibang tao..
these nuns mold me to fear God, to love and share, to forgive and love again.....
they are one of the reasons why i'm still continuing to fight and believe on myself that i will be succcessful someday.....u know, it gives me this inspiration to do the best because many people expect a lot from me...

God bless those people who need the good things on earth..kung madami lng akong pera, i'll help all of them...
i'll do all the charity works and make the lives of these people comfortable...

i'm lucky enough.
i'm blessed with so many things..
thank God...

summer class is over.... im just like the weather- unpredictable, wla sa condition, magulo....
it's not good to say that because i've always wanted to set things in order.
this is part of being a Virgo- perfectionist... sometimes, it gives me inspiration to be the best of i can be.
but oftentimes, i am so afraid to fail... despite, i still wanna take the risk...
kahit alam kong masa2ktan ako...
there were such times that i want to be alone, to find my way back to myself....
rona is no longer rona....
i became so submissive with all the outside forces of my world...
darn... it shudn't be...
God help me to know what i really want...
i am lost....
this thing made me restless...
sana naman sabihin mo sakin na ma22lungan mo ko...
masaya ko pag alam kong nakikinig ka
pero hanggang kelan?...
hindi ko alam kung dapat ko pa bang icpin un...
lalo lang akong nagu2luhan....
alam kong wlang pgasa..walang pu2nthan laht ng illusions ko.
wag nman sana...
i want to face the reality...
don't smile..make me hate that thing...
i might stumble and fall...
waaaahhhhh....Love moves.....