breathe.... yeah, its time to breathe and come out of my shell....bout my last entry, ive passed again the most difficult time of my life..ya i can say, i was hurt physically, emotionally, and spiritually...still, im moving on..im mending my broken heart... u cud possibly ask why...but it doesnt mean that we already brokeup..actually, hes just behind me... i miss him... kahit lagi kmeng mgksama i still miz him...hndi ako mapaghanap...pero mas gusto ko ung kasama ko sha na wala kmeng problemang iniicp...ung masaya lng...ung puro maga2ndang bagay pinaguusapan namen... posible na un ngaun... he may not feel how much i love him these past days dahil mejo cold ako...but everything has its reason... i was alone... there was a time i felt he left me..he was supposed to be at my side..it was my hardest time. :'( i wanted to hold him..i wanted to cry over his shoulders...i wanted to tell him what i feel on that particular moment...pero wala sha..until now, i couldnt believe it..im still here fighting for him... and im loving him even more... lahat ng ginagawa nya naappreciate ko...kahit maliit na bagay..hes been so gud to me..kung alam nyo lng... and dats exactly the reason why im still holding on...mahal na mahal ko sha..di ko lng cnsabi dahil ganun lng, its beyond words... sometimes, i would find myself crying just because im so thankful that he is here...he loves me that much...i know and i can really feel it... i am lucky...lucky...luck... i have someone who comprises the deepest part of me...hes more than a pot of gold...more than an expensive crystal..more than a precious diamond.. . i am so proud of him... ilove the man...

long time no blog....im now into something which no one cud believe...except me and those people who know about it..well...sana matapos na to..
my dad left last nov 16..i was really sad but i managed to hold my tears when we were saying gudbye and the stuff..i love my dad so much..kung alm nyo lng...i knew that hes rily on my side...ryan and him talked and it turned out as if my dad was assuming na kme na tlga....madami shang expections dat we shud do....im luking forward for a bright future..kasama lhat c ryan dun..im hapi now that my family has proven that we are one and we are really a family....im so lucky for having them....

Wherever You Are
by South Border

"i love to see the oceans beauty
and the moon that shines above
alone in the sand looking at the stars
wishing someday i will find true love
would it be nice to see the morning
with the one you love the most
would it be nice to say goodnight
to the one you hold so close
to your heart, to your heart
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
hope it'll find its way to you
wherever you are
i love to sit in fields of green
looking deeply through the sky
watching birds as they fly by
hoping someday faith will bring me true love
would it be nice to hold someone
so dear and near your heart
would it be nice to hear those words
i love you from the one
that you love, that you love
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
hope it'll find its way to you
wherever you are
[break]
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
hope it'll find its way to you
wherever you are
id love to see myself oneday
in the arms of someone
who will share her life with me
selflessly
someday, you will find your way
to where.... ohhhh
yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeaaaaah oohhh
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
hope it'll find its way to you
wherever you are
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
hope it'll find its way to you
wherever you are
wherever you... are."

last song heard....i felt so in love....andito na pla dad ko... we fetched him last nov.2, 8:30 pm...i was teary-eyed when he hugged me...ive always wanted to feel that embrace... Ryan was there to drive us to the airport...almost 2 days n sha d2...kagabi i just cried for some personal reason...i was so damn sad..

my baby was there to accompany me yesterday...we both enrolled together..we felt so exhausted....sobrang nramdaman ko kung gano ko sha kamahal ngaun...khit mejo ngkaron kme ng tampuhan coz of an old issue...basta alm ko hes on my side...basta ang alm ko, tu2parin nmin lht ng drims namen and we will be together for life.... i remember na my nanghula skin na madaming mgppropose sking ng marriage pero sbi ni ryan," madming mgaalok sau ng kasal pero sna ako ang tanggapin mo...handa akong hintayin kung kelan ka ready khit habambuhay pa ko mghintay..mhahal n mhal kita..." *sigh* mahirap maniwala ng basta2...but my heart wants to absorb those words...i love the man....

hi der... just had our class card distribution...i'm not rily contented...but guys, i have computed my GPA, fortunately umabot sha sa 3... uhm...gawd, i almost killed Ms. Carillo for giving me a 71... tapos mali pala ung computation...89 pla....grrr... sha sana ung pnakamababa ko..hmp!!! but i really promise, i will strive more...at shempre photography na namen next sem...i would like to excel in that field..this week, i was with elaine, ivy and ryan..we were all happy..i met ivy and elaine and we went to ATC.. i bought my clothes and some kikay stuffs.. after three hours of strolling,we went to sm to see ryan.we took some pictures and developed it for just a few minutes.i really had fun with them..they just dont know how thankful i am for having them..

hey....ate jho already delivered her very cute baby gurl!!!!Bianca Ysabelle- inspired by our very own Bianca Bernal..hehhe we dropped by (me,ryan,joy,tope,george and eric) there after the issuance of class cards..gee....the baby is so........cute, with chinita eyes..she always sob..idunno why.but babies are blessings and they are angels as well.. hmmmm...

im so excited, my dad will be here next week...miz him a lot.. gotta go guyz...

LAST DANCE (brian mcknight)
Do I know more than we knew then?
Or do we know less and we just pretend
Your brought out my heart and walked away
Your eyes tell me more than words will ever say
Should we take a chance
And dance the last dance?
Should we spend the night
One more time
Caught up in this romance
Or maybe wait and see, let it be
The way that it will be
Should we take a chance
And dance the last dance
How can I be wrong?
When I feel the way I feel
How can I deny, emotion that's so real
In the middle of the night
I call out your name
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you feel the same?
Let me go, come to me
Which way is the way that it should be
This is so bittersweet
There's no way that we can love enough to show
If we take the chance

i'm here at a comp shop near our place... well, things aren't the way it should be now... :( wer not in gud terms... why do i have to alwys feel that im his least priority? i understand that he's doing a lot of stuffz at home... but that doesnt mean that he would just let me wait until he's ready to give me time...im not a demanding girlfrend... alam kong di nya kasalanang masiraan sha.. but there are options.... un lng, mas pinili nyang wag akong puntahan at gawin ung mahal nyang motor... hay nakoh... ayoko namang sbihin na pde naman gn2 gnyan... xe cnbhan lng nya ko na hndi daw sha makina... am i treating him like one?!!! hindi naman eh... kung ano ung binigay nya tinatanggap ko..wala akong dinedemand... but let me know kung san ako sa buhay nya tlga...

i dont want him to feel na im just treating him like an object or what..but the way he spoke to me...parang ganun nga..lagi nya kong pngeexpect, di nman natu2pad...sna lng habang maaga cnsabi nya..sana di nlng sha ngsa2lita kung di nya kayang gawin...para di ako umasa...that's one thing i hate most, ANG UMASA SA WALA!!!!

so much about him...i have many things to thank for... kahit ganun madaming blessings.. last friday, it wasnt a good day for me khit mataas ung grade namen sa newsprod... i felt bad about sir palad..my cnabi shang (lgi nyang pnamu2ka) hndi ko gusto...kaya pag ngsstart ung activity mejo humihina loob ko...xo iniicp ko nlng na wala akong pkialam sa ssbihin nya...one day ill prove to him something..and ill look down to him as if hndi nya ko dapat cnabhan ng ganun..im not mad, lagi ko lng nra2mdaman sknya 2...depsite, im still holding my principle at walang maka2pagpabagsak skin..not even a sir palad!

tnx tlga sa lhat2 ng taong tumulong skin nung prod...muah!!!! tnx na rin ky ryan kc andun sha.... hmp!!!! galit prin ako...bhala sha...grrr.....

hi....itz really cold here... my dad just called up asking for the pasalubong i want..i just said dat i dnt go for material things. masaya ko dahil uwi sha ulit... naka2inis tlga si ms. carillo..bt sha pa kc ung prof namen d2...i want sumtin more exciting, lagi nlng gan2 dnidiscuss nya..grrrr...
well, as far as my relationship goes....i'm contented with our setup now..but im a lil bit sad kc we cant really spend time alone...madaming nagbago sa haus.. napagalitan pa ko...anyway, sana tapos na tlga ung problem nmen... i shud move on.. God gave me another chance...He is so great.... i just hope i could return back all the favors and blessings He is giving me...
This friday will be our finals day in newsroom prod... kinakabahan na ko... kaya ko un..sbi ng baby ko eh...sana maging maaus lahat...
just want to thank Ryan for everything... he's been so good to me...i wont elaborate more... he knows how much i love him.. and i wont be bragging anymore, nkikita naman eh... ryt?.. so much for 2day...lovlotz

hi everyone... im here in jfh 208, comp journ nmen...grrr... well at least i shud b hapi dhil nabawi ko ung grade ko... im not really hapi of what happening in our class. im not so mindful of the effect kc ok lng skin..but the fact that we should be together, un ang dapat mangyari...

wow.....6 days to go...bday ko na... not so excited... i have dis big problem... so much about it..im still happy... ilove you baby....tnx 4 alwez being there....hmmmmmm... my dad will be cumin home soon....yes!!!

Ill Never Get Over You (Getting Over Me)

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time.
With all your good time friends.
I don't think that you think of me.
You're on your own now.
And I'm alone and free.
I know that I should get on with my life.
But a life lived with out you could never be right.
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
I try to smile so the hurt won't show.
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go.
But the tears just won't go away (won't go away)
Lonliness found me.
Looks like it's here to stay.
I know that I ought to find someone new.
But all I find is myself always thinkin' of you.
As long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
oh... No matter what I do.
Each night's a lifetime to live through.
I can't go on like this. (I need your touch)
You're the only one I ever loved... oh.
And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens.
Long as the rivers run to the sea.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.
I'll never get over you gettin over.
Never get over you... gettin over.
I'll never get over you gettin' over me.

i just love the melody of the song.... and these lines, " as long as the stars shine down from the heavens..long as th rivers run to the sea...i'll never get over you gettin over me..."

itz our one year and one month today.. last night, we had this argument about the past agen.. im so damn tyrd of it....i shudnt be that affected.. we have bigger problems to face, yet we are trying to find the best solution... so plz i ope we won't be arguing with those stuffz agen..

ironically it may seem, i feel so happy because of the blessing we received from God.. yes, i consider it sacred and a wonderful blessing.. we will always keep that bleesing with us forever...i duunno watz the problem of my x who was txting me agen.. just like last nyt... he told me he couldnt be there for me.. am not asking his help anyway... di rin ako nkkipagusap sknya...i know me and ryan cud get over everything... my love for him will make me stronger to stand on what i believe and simply be happy...

malapit na bday ko... sana madaming bumati skin...sunday kc un... im so sleepy... i slept for about 2 hrs only..haggard tlga ko... i did so many things yesterday..sa sobrang inis, pinagod ko ung sarili ko... (bad rona)...

virgos reign.....so long

itz so cold.late nga ko ngaun...miz yah baby... i feel bad....naka2inis c miss.....!!!! i just don't want my day be ruined....galing kme sa funeral ni auntie lina kagabi...i also went there last saturday with ivy..*sigh* tita un ni elaine....
malapit na bday ko.... we planned to go bar hopping on the night of sept.18....grrrrrrrrrrr..... bad trip tlga ko!!!!

no words could explain how much i feel now... the past days were not so good between me and ryan..last wednesday, we had this fight which made me feel down...i couldn't cry..at least i don't want anybody to mess up with me...thurs- we had our practice in Electronic newsroom for next week's activity.. he dropped by and yet, we were still not in good terms...i felt so down..lonely....whatever you may call it... finally, ive waited for 12 midnyt to greet him...to my surprise, he txted me this............"hapi 1st yr anniversy my life.mhan n mhal po kta at p2loy ktang mmhalin sa hbmbuhay...we stil hav 4evr 2 go..il olweiz b hir 4u wtever hapns..il nver get tyrd of lovin u..mhal n mhal kta by..iloveyou til my vry last breathe...iloveyou and il olwez b proud of you...iloveyou my life..
1 n cguro 2 s pnkamsyang ygto ng bhay k..khit keln d ako mgsa2wang mhalin ka. slmat ky god bngay k nya skn.slmat sio,n22 kng mgmhal ng 22o.kht keln d mppntayan ng kht anong ksyhan ung mga arw n dmdaan pg ksma kta nd nung nkila2 kta.ako n cguro pnkamasayang tao s buong mundo.mhal nmhal kta by.mhal nmhal kta ng hgit p sa khit ano at khit cno o hgit p sa buhay ko..hapi anniversary mhal ko..."

naka2loka dhil puro iloveyou...napaiyak ako nung mbasa ko un..i felt so blessed 4 having him..naiiyak n nman ako...friday-one of the happiest moment of my life..anniversary n namen!!! we went to sm, had lunch together, watched movie-IRobot,then we went home...we had dinner 2gether and......hehehe...basta amin nlng un dhil nka2tawa tlg un nangyari...ang kulit kc namen...nasa room na kme kc pnapatulog ko na ung baby bro ko...hayy... mas madaming moments na tahimik...wala kc kong masabi..masaya ko...we kept quiet, feeling each others arms...*relief* yakap ako ng isang lalaking gusto kong mgalaga sakin hanngang sa pagtanda ko... the most important thing- he looked deeply into my eyes, got something from his bag-gift nya sakin...uhm...he held my hand and said,"can i keep u forever?"...grabe naiyak talaga ko.....i told him, "why not?"...then we hugged each other so tight and whispered how much we love each other...we had our very first identical ring!!! hehehe, wish come true..believe it or not, first time ko 2... b4 kc, magkaiba plagi...ang saya ko talga...tears just fell into my eyes... wala kc akong masabi...i love the man infront of me, tapos ganun ung mga sinasabi nya sakin... what more cud i ask for?....i'm more than enough...above else, i'm thanking God for giving me this wonderful person, for lettin him come into my life for a great reason- he thought me how to love with no regrets and hesitations..i bought him a bracelet...ung di daw sha mahilig..hmp!!! cd na pnaburn ko kay eric..tnx! and a card which expressed all my love...(",)

hi...my head is achin..brrr... 3 days to go......iloveyou baby....uhm...perfect ako sa exams ni palad...ang saya!!!

THINGS I MISS... WHEN I WAS A COLLEGE FROSh

tambay sa BATIBOT-kwentuhan, mahangin at mejo peaceful....
kubo infront of erh para makita lahat ng dumadaan every wednesday....
umuwi ng maaga para matulog, nag-aral o kaya pumunta ng mall...
mag-net sa ERS one 2 sawa dahil andun pinsan ko...
bumili ng kung ano2....mga cute and small stuffz...

hi der...wow....4 days to go.................ONE YEAR NA KME!!!! last saturday, i bought my gift for my baby...seemingly, he didnt like it...:( kwento ko nlng pag natanggap na ña... still, im excited about it....so far, madaming ginagawa ngaun...i can feel na pagod ako the whole day...hay........ iloveyou baby..un lng....

All My Love
by Innervoices

Thinking about you babe
picturing you right by my side
girl without you baby, I just can't go on with my life
You were there for me
you cared for me
now I know it was meant to be
I'll be here til eternity
baby, just you and me
Oooh I... wanna give you all my love
I wanna show you everything that my hearts made of
heaven sent from above
oh I.. wanna make your wish come
baby there is anything I'll do, I'll do for you
so I give to you... all my love.. all my love
Sometimes it's so hard to breathe thinking bout you and me... yeah
now we could be baby
is this jusT a fantasy or reality?
ooh oh .. baby its destiny, baby.. baby its destiny.. oh oh oh oh
You were there for me
you cared for me
now I know it was meant to be
and I'll be here til eternity
baby just you and me
Oooh I... wanna give you all my love
I wanna show you everything that my hearts made of
heaven sent from above
and I.. wanna make your wish come
baby anything i will do, I'll do for you
so I give to yo... all my love.. all my love
Girl I cant explain the way that I feel
my emotions I cant conseal
I need you in my arms to show your love is real
you're there for me
you cared for me
and I believe that faith is in our hands
girl lets take this chance
Oooh I... wanna give you all my love
I wanna show you everything that my hearts made of
heaven sent from above
oh.. I wanna make your wish come
baby anything that I will do, I'll do for you
so I give to you...
oOoh.. I wanna give you all my love
I wanna show you everything that my hearts made of
heaven sent from above
I wanna make your wish come
baby in time I wanna spend my life with you
thats why im giving you all my love
all my love(all my love..... all my love)
all my love(all my love..... all my love)

 

 

hi po.....well im sori about what i wrote last night...nka2bad trip lang talga kung cno man un...
ngaun ako magbbrag at sa lahat ng mga insecure jan..hahaha mainggit kau!!!!!
AUGUST 6,2004- one year na kme ng babycoh... i can say that im a very lucky girl for having him... Ryan is a man with few words but expresses his actions tangibly.. we met last July 31,2003-krystel's bday; kubo- infront of ERH around 1:30 PM; COS protocol. they let me sat down beside him.i had no idea why... he got my pic courtesy of my bestfriend-Jan Michael Mision few weeks ago before we met... it was really a bad day for we just had a fight with ara's group...(at least, i can say that ara had changed a lot...wala na kong maramdaman na kahit anong galit sknya..i just love the girl...for being true... ewan ko lng ung iba jan!!!)
going back...... he borrowed the fan i was holding...mainit kc..hmmm-strategy.hehehe.... tapos class na namen kay Sir JULIUS ESTRADA when he texted me...uhm...sabi no joy kinilig daw ako..pero di ko alam un... nagulat lng ako...kc parang pnagttripan lng nila ko...the fact that i still love someone then....as in di ganun kadaling kalimutan un...tapos un he started courting me... imagine sa Cavite pa sha nakatira tapos iha2tid nya c krystel tpos iikot ulit kmi pabalik ng las piñas tpos balik ulit sha ng Cavite.. i felt so overwhelmed... sha pa lng ung guy na nakagawa nun sakin.. he always makes me feel like a princess...inaalagaan nya ko ever since..i can't remember any day na pinabayaan nya ko...kahit mgkaaway kme,nasa2ktan man ako, i could still feel hes there for me... he alwez give me a big and warm hug kahit na ala lng....tapos he would hold my hand every time... kahit nakaupo lng... well, gud enough... and he would alwez say he loves me... *kilig*

i would want to be cuddled alwez...tapos i would gently touch his face and kiz him pag ngta2mpo sha...ang cute kc ng pisngi nya..hehe...daming laman... i almost love everything about him..his soft straight hair...his thick and long eyelashes..tangos dn ng ilong nyan pag nkaside view..hehehe..bagay nman eh... his red kissable lips...sbi nya un....his SMILE-knocks me off my feet... he just have this cute alluring smile...weakness ko un..hehehe.... guys with cute smile...he smells like a baby..kya nga baby coh yan eh...sarap ihug...sha din ang nkagpasunod sakin sa madaming pgkakataon...weeewwwww.. not everyone knows, im kinda hard headed...pag gusto ko, ginagawa ko lahat para mangyari..pero pag sha nagsalita parang di ko masuway...still,my mga times prin na ako nasu2nod... 
all i know is that i love him so much...we both dream together..sha lang naka2alam ng lahat ng dreams ko..di ko un sinasabi kahit kanino... i just want to be happy... happiness-KALIGAYAHAN...

sa lahat ng mga naging obstacles,nanira,nanggulo, salamat sa iño dahil mas naging strong kme..mas minahal namen isa't-isa..ilove you all..hehehe

hi der...kung cno man nangookray sa blog ko..lgot ka skin... lalo na malkas tlga hinala ko kung cno ka...u wud fil kung pano ko magalit...magaling pa nman ako mginvestigate..just wait and see... INSECURE!!! DAMN YOU!!!

ALL my LOVE

If you see me walking with a smile

And laugh all the while

It's because I love you

if you see that sparkle in my eye

i'm telling you why

It's because I love the way that you touch me

It moves my spirit high

And it gives me that feeling of summer in July

'Cause

You're my love

You're my everything

Gonna give you all my love

'Cause you're the world to me

Dreaming of a lifetime of love

That's sent from above

Telling you I love you

I don't want this feeling to end

Now I've found a friend

Who can bring me all the

Joy and all the laughter that I kept locked inside

Hold me in your arms baby,

tell me that your love is mine

You're my love

You're my everything

All my love

You're my love now baby

You're the world to me

All my love

Gonna give you all my love

All my love, gonna give you

[Do you know I couldn't sleep last night 'cause I was thinking about you?]

[You're my world, you're the song I sing, you're my everything]

 You're my love, you're my everything

Gonna give you all my love, you're the world to me [repeat chorus to fade]

 

 

well, this is another day of my life....well mejo naka2pagod kc madaming nangyari pero ok lng..basta ang alam ko lng, mas naging strong ako.. my love for Ryan even grew stronger kahit nangyari lahat un... i miss the guy... i just wish he is alweiz beside me... malapit na kme mgone year...sana maging masaya na kme..wla ng manggulo...ilove you baby....ganda nung song..bagay tlaga....tnx po sa lahat....sobrang dami na natin napagdaanan..parang matgal na tau mgkasama..i cant remember a day wo u....lagi ka kcng anjan 4 me...iloveyou...wala na kong masabi..idont have to brag to the whole world kung ano tau ngaun...im more than happy simply knowing you are there for me.... i love you...un lng...

 

hi pipz.... well....u know, ive been through a lot..i mean me and my baby just had the most painful argument i could consider for the last 11 months of our relationship... that even led me to break up with him... yes... yes, i broke up with him.. i was really hurt, but what can i do if he ought to have a second chance...he already learned his lesson and i can very well feel that he is making up for everything ... he was kinda sick last tuesday so i took care of him....wawa... "he made me stronger by breaking my heart...." uy...kanta un noh...hehehe..
well, until now i'm damn piss of with his ex girfriend...son of a.....shes a total mess...liar and b****.... Lord, forgive me but im all fed up... everybody is right, i should be the one to call up for a confrontation, not her..b***... i hate her!!! tomorrow woudn't be a day for us to talk to her...hintayin nyang ako ok...
im happy that i'mdone with my assignment with sir geslani..next week will be exam week so i plan to study even harder... i promise to myself to be the best i can be...i would not allow anyone to hinder me from achieving all my dreams...
baby,thanks for everything...as in...sana lhat ng dumating, makaya nating lagpasan..dats how much ilove you...we will be strong..i promise...:'( ur alwez in my thoughts come what may....our one year together will be one of our most special day...i love you my cute kitty cat....hmmmmmmmm....
chismis: aba aba ang lola mong c krystel toribio mahaba ang buhok at my bagong lovelife!!! goodluck gurl...ilalampaso natin clang lahat!!! daba ang ganda nating lahat!!! hahaha

ang lamig d2.hhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeellllllllllllppppppppppp.... d ko n kya......

Forever
by Damage

CHORUS
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun, you are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you
(chorus)

We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

CHORUS
(And baby I pray you leave me never)

BRIDGE:
Coz this is a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Coz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

I just want you to know that I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever i'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When I talk, I only talk about you baby

Ryan...i hope you would read this... this is so much dedicated to you.. i am lost without you... *sigh* don't let me cry again... i hate to talk about it but this is one way to get over the pain.. i want you to know that you are one of the best thing that ever happened to me.you showed a different kind of love..i don't know exactly why i am feeling this... you are forgiven..but things are not as easy as that...i miss you...yet i can't feel that you want me back...i'm not being pathetic for you were the one who did something wrong... i don't want to elaborate more... we are human.we both commit mistakes.. someday, i will get over this..remember that i wont include you to my list...napakababaw naman... its not that big but the impact hurts!!!
maybe you have reasons...unreasonable reasons..:,( maybe i wasn't enough... i wasn't giving you that much.. maybe i wasn't there for you when you needed me.. maybe i was never really been a good girlfriend to you... but swear to God, i did evrything to get over my past..thou there are times i want to recall about it...i did my best to let you know i care about you..that i don't want to lose you...never did i want...never did i thought it would happen now...i won't love again as much as i did to you... this may be hard for me but what can i do... i hope we could pass all these.... as long as i love you, i will always be there for you...

" i was afraid this time will come...i wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurtin from within...i have learned to live my life beside you.maybe i just dream of you tonite....and if you would come and touch me once again..i just keep on dreamin..til my heartache ends......"

hi....itz our 11th monthsary today...hapi........one month na lng grbe...i love you baby!!!! much po

hi ther everyone.. i am lil piss of again.... itz munday morning, i woke up early thou i had 5 hours sleep only..i was so glad that my DAd called up and said that he just bought a new phone for txting... before kc he used to call us lang..it feels like he is just 1 meter away... i miss him so much and i can't wait to see him again...i promise, i would spent most of my time with him...
well i guess i want to end up my argument with my baby's ex.. she just sucks...i dont want to sound insinuating but if u gotta chance to talk to her with that matter, u'll feel like burning her to hell.. i hate her for saying that Ryan is cnungaling and the stuffs.. poor gurl...
i watched Spiderman with my lil bro and my baby last wednesday.. my bro slept half time of the movie... he kept on asking ryan about why certain things happened in the movie.. he's smart and i can proudly say,"mana sa ate".. kahit cno samin ng sis ko..hehehe... my sister does well in school.. she is aiming to be one of the top 3 in class, now that her x bf is one of her rivals for the position.. someone offered her a modeling class, she just ignored and said to me,im not like my ate...sabi nya, i have this confidence na wala daw sha... hmmm... she's pretty naman and madmi din nagsa2bi na she's ptrettier than me.. well, thats something i've accepted when she was born.. but one thing i don't like about her is her pagiging suplada..as in.. if she doesn't know the person, she'll just raise her eyebrow up and stare at you...that's one of the reasons why people seem to say that i am more approachable than her.. i would probably be smiling with someone i really don't know...
one time i was alone, there was this lady who just forced me to give my number and name for his brother... that guy can't even come close to me..but yeah, he shouldn't do it..i'm taken... im used to this kind of situations so my baby really hate the idea of me going somewhere else alone... bur sometimes, i enjoy being alone...
well, regarding my studies,this class-Computer Journalism is not doing any good to us..wala prin pROF!!! ano ba yan... mmamaya, my general assembly ang buong journ..hmmm.. i wanna go home na!!!
hey, before i forgt, we went to the gym last friday when i knew that our class was divided again for guds sake.. unfortunately, i was one of the few chosen studz to transfer to the wednesday shedule...we will be joining some of the irregular students who petitioned for that class....hmm.... the good side if it, i will go home early every friday....
until now, i can feel pain in my left and right abs...i had 6 sets of crunches and sit ups..gwad... it do hurts... i didn't do longer warm up... kc naman...i was so excited to get back using those equipments...im going there at least thrice a week... u wud probably be wondering why.. i just want to get fit and stronger... itz really good for the cardio... i won't be gettin tired whenever i do some things which i would have to devote my efforts...

Why? Avril Lavigne

why
do you always do this to me
why
couldn’t u just see it though me
how come
you act like this
like you just don’t care at all
do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall

I can feel I can feel you near me
even though you’re far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
why
its not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
more and more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
tell me
are you and me still together
tell me
you think we could last forever
tell me
why

hey
listen to what we’re not sayin
lets play
a different game then what we’re playin
try
to look at me and really see my heart
do u expect me to believe
I’m gonna let us fall apart

I can feel I can feel you near me
even when you’re far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
why
its not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
more and more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
tell me
are you and me still together
tell me
you think we could last forever
tell me
why

so go and think about
whatever you need to think about
go and dream about
whatever you need to dream about
and come back to me
when you know just how you feel
you feel..

I can feel I can feel you near me
even though you’re far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
why
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
more and more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
tell me
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
more and more each day
its not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
tell me
are you and me still together
tell me
you think we could last forever
tell me
why


im hearing this song more often than before... someone dedicated this for me.. forget him!
well, i'm dedicating this to my one and only cute kitty cat...the man i know who will always take care of me...shempre baby coh un...there are times you will see me staring at nowhere, that you may feel im insane... but those quiet moments were the time i was praying to God... i am happy to have him...i just can't believe how God knows that i need him ... if you would get to know him, you will fall deeper and deeper...as what i am feeling now....he is one my best buddz... i can open up anything to him, khit ung simple to complicated things... i just love the guy so much...sana.............. fate and time will tell...i want him to be the man who will wait for me at the altar,who will give name to my children, who will be with me through thick and thin, who will grow old with me with all his loyalty.i love you baby... they wouldn't know that... but i know you know it and you can feel it... thanks for everything...mwah!!!

uhm...hi guyz...im here in a comp station with mah baby doing my stuffz in RTV newswriting.. yeah,ive been planning to do it since last week but evrything turned out as i wasn't expecting.. we fought and it made me a lil crazy...well...we planned to shoot tom and i hope it won't rain again.. Classes was suspended so i am able to do this earlier than 5:30.. uhm..i can't see my favorite classmate..hehehe....
our class in newsroom production with Sir Palad would be divided just like what happened with Ms. Salvan's class last summer. i hope my shedule wouldn't change anymore. but due to some students who petitioned for another class, we can't do anything about it.
so far, i'm having fun with my subjects particularly writing news and delivering it.i can almost feel i'm near of being a true and certified broadcast journalist..i know i still have a long way to go..but i swear, i will make everything in reality....
tace care everyone!!! i hope i could bring back my good eating and sleeping habits..

hi guyz...im a lil bit btter than yesterday...my head is aching so bad when i woke up until mid afternoon... we talked...but not so good... i dont want to elaborate more..bcoz it hurts me more...im starting to work on my assignment with sir geslani..ope u like my new web design... lov lotz...

Four Seasons Of Loneliness-Boys II Men

I long for, the warmth of, days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty, without you
By my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try
When I get the courage to know somebody new
It always falls apart cos they just can't compare to you
You're the one that makes me ....under ball and chain
Reminsce, think about
As I watch for seasons to change
The winter comes and
Chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe (as springtime)
As springtime makes it's way here, lilac blooms remind me of
The scent of your perfume
Reminsce inside of love,
On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
No no chance the leaves of the trees are bare, when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same
It doesn't feel the same

Oh oh
Remember
The night when (remember the night)
When we closed our eyes (when we closed our eyes)
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time
?Everytime we figure out the things that we shared?
I'm that kind of guy, cos I get so emotional
It makes me
..it makes me think I'm under? ball and chain
Reminsce in our love
As I watch for seasons change
The winter comes
It chills the air and hits the snow
I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
The springime makes it's way lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume
On summer nights, indeed
I get the hots for you
Skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
No no chance the leaves of the trees are bare when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same

Mmmm
This loneliness has crushed my heart (it's killing me baby)
?Lets be back in love again
........ ease my pain
But four seasons will bring
The loneliness again
When springtime makes it way here, lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume
On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
....
Doesn't feel the same

Remember
The warmth of
Days gone by

i cnt help but cry...d song cmply tells what i feel now..i was happy with elaine and ivy few hours ago..first, i went to ivy's place and waited until she got dressed..it wasn't too boring for i read an interesting book while waiting for her..we went to sm, bought a vdeo tape for Sir Palad's hmework...Elaine came and as she said, it was an ultimate bonding for us.. ako kc, lagi akong present..u can find me anywhere or anytime basta wla akong gngawa..im alwez on the go basta lakad nameng tatlo..tnx sa kanilang 2..nbawasan lungkot ko..but now, i feel so alone that i just want to let the days pass quickly as possible...
hndi ko man lang alam kung nsan sha...i hope matapos na lhat ng 2...im not supposed to feel this..hmmm..sori kung sa blog ko pa nla2gay to..ayoko lng sbhin pa sa iba na gn2..pag wlng nangyari nagung gabi..i swear... my mngya2ring hndi dapat...pray for me...un lng...yko na...

MYMP - A Little Bit


I was kinda hesitant to tell you
Should I let you know
I was never really like this before
Need I say more

Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

[Chorus:]
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, I need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And I will fall

I'm always on the run to see you
Would you allow me to
It wasn't my attention to hurt you
This feeling is true

Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

[Chorus:]
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, I need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And I will fall

ijust kinda heard d song a while ago...damn,ive been crying a lot this past week..why do people seem to think that way?...i can easily forgive for God sake..But everybody seem to abuse it...what if i'm the kind of person who would like to curse those people who are hurting me?... ang dami nila at bka lhat cla umiiyak din katulad ko...well, with the help of my family,my friends-joy,krystel and mendy,Ryan of course,i'm still in control...pano pag nwala cla?... hndi ako mgda2lawang-icp na gumawa ng bagay na pgccchan ng mga taong gumgulo sakin...i swear!! buti chose to be quiet..and wait for the right time pra ipamuka sa lhat na mali cla!! wag sana kong mapuno,hndi ko alm kayang kong gawin...ayokong mngyari un...guys, mgpakatotoo kau...kung my galit kau sa tao,sabihin nyo..wag nyo ng ipasa,ikuwento pa sa iba..mas mbuting iconfront nyo ung tao xa gnun..dhil pag nkarating un sa taong dpat pgsbhan,cguradong mgiiba...yan pnagmu2lan ng away..at pde ba, aykong mkipagaway dhil masama akong kaaway...i may be quiet..pero pag ngalit ako,sobra2..kya sana wag dumating pa sa point n un..pgod na ko..kya tigilan nyo na kong lahat!!! nauubos na rin pasensha ko samga taong walang alam kundi mgicp ng msama sa iba ng walang basehan!! mata2nda na tau pra mgaway ng dhil sa cmpleng tinginan o taasan ng kilay..mygudd... im sori4 saying these...i'm fed up..sa lhat ng gusto pang sumira sa pagkatao ko, gudluck sa inyo...cguraduhin nyo lng na ba2gsak ako.. dhil kng hndi...c 4 urself..ba2likan ko kaung lhat!!sana handa kaung harapin kung pano ako mgalit...
thank you baby 4 taking care of me..khit inaaway na nila ko at lalo akong nagkasakit,anjan ka pa rin...they just dont know how ur making me stronger each day.. thanks...i trust you...hndi ko ha2yaang mcra un ng iba..hndi ako mdaling mapaniwala..tnxpo tlga..iloveyou somuch.. mlapit na kmeng mg1 year...saya...

help.... i dnt kno wat to think..hndi ko alm kng cno at ano ung dapat kong paniwalaan... nilo2ko ba nya ko?...:'( icpin ko pa lng..nga2lit na ko....gusto ko yatang mkaptay ng tao!!! i hate wat her x gf is saying... aykong maniwala... pero mas nani2wala ako sa instinct ko... my pkirmdam ako na merun akong hndi alm...:'( ano bang ga2win ko.. i badly need someone now.. help...........

First Love (Utada Hikaru)
the last kiss tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell tomorrow,
at this time where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?
you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song
the paused time is about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about
tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you
you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song until I can sing a new song
you are always gonna be my love even
if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

hi...at last ate jho's wedding ws over..masya nman sha..we slept at mendy's place...me, joy, and mah baby...that was the secong time we slept together..ung una last valentine's day, kc we had to sleep over sa haus ni george to fnish the editing stuff for yaby...hehe.. well, mlapit na tlga bday ng baby ko.. i liked wat i bought for him..ope na mgustuhan dn nya..i put my heart in it..
uhm..im still pissed of with her x gurlfriend...she's so childish and narrow-minded.. she wants me to believe something that happened in the past..no ga2win ko dun?..it won't help naman... she talks w /o sense and i hate her...duh..not even an inch better..yabang noh...kung kau lng tlga mki2pagusap sa gnung klaseng babae, ewan ko lng..u guys cud hav tell her more hurting words..i was still kind to her..ngmura sha pero hnbaan ko nlng pasensha ko..so much for dat stupid lil' brainy gurl...
an angel for me is leaving this saturday i think...:'(she is Sr. Lauretana Bersani who happened to help me since high school.. when i was about to lose my hope and end my life, she was there comforting me..i felt so blessed with her inspiring words..when i become succesful,i will definitely go to Italy and visit her..im wishing her good health.. she seems to be weak and sick...e2 nga tawag nya sakn,"terrible gurl"...with a spank on my face while bursting into laughter bcoz i wud start smiling and sayin, "sister nman, masakit po".. then shu wud tell, "talk to me in english..ur a broadcast journalist student aite"... after the time we wud spend, she wud hug and kiss me.. i love this woman..i looked up to her...she is more than an angel to me..God bless her...

hmmm....i'm so sleepy...antok pa ko...gs2 ko pa sleep...at last i finished that *...* article...tom is already vacation..if i can call dat vacation.. of course ima do things which cud make me tyrd and relaxd.. hayy... i wna take a break, go to a place that is quiet,as in solemn.... i wna lay down and feel the cold wind touching me... i wna close my eyes and continue dreaming of tomorrow... that i will be a fine looking lady with head up high for my success...
i mizz my dad... cant wait for september...hey, i dreamed of sumtin last night.. me and ryan wer together..suddenly, we saw the devil and her girlfriend.. i looked at them... as if i'm trying to assess myself if i felt jealous or what... i was not..(",)i smiled and told my baby that they are not worth tym spending...
last night was a coincidence when we saw them (devil and his friends) inside a comp station near our haus.. i was about to finished my article when i heard a commotion.. well, they sat down just one computer away from us.. it was like a narrow space between us and i cudnt breathe... i hate him... it's bad to hate someone but people, you ought to understand me... he's really a total a**... if he wana prove his happy..fine.. i dont give a damn.. not a lil bit....
my baby is sitting beside me... wer both surfing... gotta eat.. so much for today...

hi der... sir didnt check the attendance..i had fun with mah baby yesterday... my brother and him played again last night..magkasundo tlga cla..im happy for that...
still have to gather facts bout that article thing...uhm...ope it wont rain again...gotta go!!!

hi... problem solved!!! i'm happy..bati na kme ng baby ko... miz na miz ko yan...when i saw him hnug ko tlga sha... i love the guy so much!! well, i need to do 2 artcles for d finals...i feel so inspired.. khapon nga, naiyak pa ko sa van..nkkainis tlga...sbi ko i won't do it na...sobrang lakas ng ulan..malungkot kung my kgalit...msaya kung my mhal...hehe..and i'm happy...
malapit n pla kasal ni ate jho...mgmmganda nnman ako...o cge un lng..my ggwin pa ko eh...

hi...i feel so alone...wer not in gud terms...let me say that i just want to spend my quality time with the people i love... last saturday,me and elaine went shopping at festival mall..i had fun..i didnt expect that after having fun with my bestfriend, i would mess up with my boyfriend... i ddnt txt him like what he have always wanted... nawalan ako ng load...alabang is not a safe place... but i swear, i did my best to txt him..ngpahinga lng ako kya di ako nakabili ng load agad.. it turned out to be like i ddnt care which was wrong...why should i not care for him.. i love him..so much!!! still, i feel so upset talking to him... i dont know if i want to talk to him.. i want to see him..hug him... but i dont know how...i miss him dis much.. 3 days dat i'm not able 2c him...it feels like 3 years...:'( plz help... ope that everything would be alright.. un lng... i wont go home agad..ima drop by sm..basta i could forget this loneliness...
i'm sorry baby... ilove you so much... i just hope you wont feel like i don't love you or what...no words could explain how much i feel for you..so please...understand..:'(

hi...im piz of......i gota low score...:( hndi ko lam kng ung cheker dpat kong cchin o ako lng...consideration nman sna!!! di n tlga ko mgging gnun nxt tym...hmp!!!! bawi nlng ako nxt tym.. my hed is aching sobra...i wna go home.. i wnt 2 slip ol day..yko ng mgicp..yko n tlga...:'(... ope mwala n 2...i ddnt c my mum b4 i left...9 am n wla p sha...how cum...she juz txted me..dats ol..i haTE DS DAY...grouse...ge,jan n baby coh.. c yah

hi peepz..still bloggin..at last i made sum1 4 mah baby... by, miz u na...thou we wer 2gether yestrday almost d whole day.. cnt wait 2 c u na...uhm... i lost dis ring am going to give....????? we helped each other fnd it..unfortunately, we ddnt...d following day, my mum txted me, i found it inside my pants' pocket.. how did it happen?...it walked and climbed that high...puzzle..hahaha...ok lng at least,its really meant to be..by, im so happy to have you..ur bday is fast approaching and i'm glad i am d woman u chose 2be at ur side during dt big day of ur life...im so lucky,God knows why.. i have a great family, nice mom...khit minsan masungit..dun yta ko ngmana..hehehe..very sweet and loving Dad..*thumbs up*!!! 2 cute siblings...khit mku2lit...we jus hav one problm bout my sis..but wer trying to solve it...my smart and witty baby brother whom i dedicate my way of thinking...ngmana sa ate....gud bestfriends..like elaine and ivy who hav been with me 4 almost 11 years...cool friends like joy,krystel,mendy and ate jho..of course my blockmates...JOU 2-1.. i just love being one of this class..a combination of great talents and personalities....make wave to us..hahaha... and to the most special man of my life..Ryan Biteranta...for alwez being there for me...yet there are gurls who can only c his looks and admiring him right away.. but i'm telling u, der is so much to admire bout this man... what's inside him wud really make ur heart melt... he's very sentimental..very sweet...he makes me feel like a princess..he's giving me d best he can... thank God... for giving me a wonderful life.....

hi...gbre antok pa ko...ryan left around 11:30 pm last nyt... i slept around 12:30...nakoh cno kya mana2lo... i hate the fact that FPJ cud win..sna wag po...im still waiting 4 mah baby...sbay sha mglunch... c yah!!!

hi po..."it myt be u" wud hav their shuting here..as in d2 sa building namen... i hv 2c J.L. agen... d next bigger step shud be done...i wud grab every oppotunity...hahahaha... 9 months n kme ng baby coh yesterday... i had a great tym... we went home around 9 pm...uhm..lapit n tlga bday nya... cnt wait to make him happpppyyyy thou....basta pra sa mahal ko... i ope and pray that everything will be alryt between us... aykong maging hindrance ung relationship namen 4 me 2 study harder... sha nga inspiration ko... he know na studies ko tlga first priority ko.. i love him more 4 dat...
ope i cud rest a little bit... lgi nlng akong my gngwa. i slip l8...alwez...pag maaga kc me...i cudnt slip.. i hav 2 miscol ol mah frends 2 mke me slip..or listen to soft and sentimental music...haayyyy... i juz wish i cud slip more often dan d usual thing...
ge..hav 2 fix dis blog pa....tc...

hi guyz....la lng...i juz fnished my interview..mggawa ko n ung article..hav 2 study 4 tom...byez... miz u by...

Love Of My Life
by Keith Martin

I want you to know how I feel about you
I must show
What to do everytime you are near
All the girls, who try and take your place
It's impossible
They don't matter
'Cause I'm inlove with you
'Cause you are

(CHORUS)

The love of my life
No one can make me feel the way you do
All my heart and soul I give to you
'Cause you are, the love of my life
Your smile can light the darkest part of me
Can you see
You are the love of my life
Ooohhh, yeah yeah

I searched for a long time
Just to find a love to call my own
Never thought that I can find someone like you
I promise you fidelity, in me you'll find security
Just say you'll stay with me always
There's no other way for me to say
You are

Bridge:

I can climb the highest mountain
with you beside me, mm yeah yeah
There's no one I would rather spend eternity, yeah
I know we've only been
together for a short time, baby baby, baby
I want you to know, that I won't go
'Cause you are

(Repeat Chorus Twice)

hapi bday mom!!! tnx 4 being d best mon in the world!!!!

haler.... im a bit piz of bout dis mr.boy a. luk alyk... well...i feel somtin weird...prang my gus2 kong gawn..un nga lng bka bad un..i wnt 2 go out my cage...i wnt 2 fly freely with no one 2 think bout...w no one 2 hurt... i wnt 2 smile bcoz of new things..i wnt 2 explore d world...w new place and people...
my dad cald up me up last saturday...i felt lucky and blessed for having such a wonderful dad..khit anong mngyari, hell alwez b der 4 me..sure yan...nice to know that my parents are still deeply in love with each other... my dad told me then, "you are the most precious gift that God has given..im alwez thankful that ur my daughter..mhal n mhal kta anak..." (",) hes so..........sweet...no man cud ever replace him..i consider him number one in my heart.
we had an interview with the server operator and it seemed like d news is not worthy...i was assigned a while ago about the polca thingy..i hav 2 interview again...
mlapit n bday ng baby coh..still thinking of somtin...basta... i miz him a lot...khit n mnsan lng kme d mgkita... i wnt 2 c him smile, hear his jokes...(kht korny...hehe...) i cmply want hm 2 stay besyd me..i feel secured everytime wer 2gether.. nkpagshift n sha ng com... i dunno why but im startin to fear a lot...????? same building..same environment...dt wud sckz...sorry but im not used 2 it... but yeah...hav 2 go on...
so much 4 today...lov lotz...

hi again....grabe late me agen...but of course, im so lucky kc d nagcheck ng attendace c sir!!! yes...im waiting 4 ryan 2 cum...sbay kc sha mglunch..i cnt open my frendster...why kya...hmmm...mlapit n wedding ni ate jho...hapi bday Athena!!

NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE YOU
by: Keith Martin
Girl, you take my breath away
And then I'm with someone new
I'd rather be here with you
Baby, forever
My heart belongs to you
Cause I think about you all the time
I know my love is true
When we're together

I've played around girl
And I made you cry
When I looked up
You were saying goodbye
I"m begging you please
I need you so bad
Don't leave me now
You're the best that I have

Chorus:

I'll never
I'll never find someone like you
I promise it's true
No, I'll never
I'll never find someone like you
Cause I love the way that you hold
And girl, I won't, no I won't let you go
No one can ever do
The way I will make love yo you

All I have is just my heart
And my feelings that I give to you
That's all that I could do
Is give you forever
You don't know that you're hurting me
Cause it's not just a sexual thing
I want to share my dreams
Baby, forever

Girl, I'm afraid just to give up on love
My heart's telling me to hold back on my love
But when you get close
I just want you to know
I start to get weak
And I can't let you go

Chorus

Just your smile
Tenderness
Girl,I won't let you down

Chorus



wow...this song is lyk wat i wna tell to my baby..iloveyou po...miz u much!!!tpos n exam...im starving...d kc ko ngbreakfast...hmp..dpat d ako pa2sok kc....la lng ccret..gotta go..love yah all

hi....we jes had an exam...i gotta gud score...well, ryan cudnt fetch me now...hes dad is leavin..today...nsa airport n cla ngaun...its kinda nka2lungkot dn...ge surf pa ko...ingatz alwez...bye!!!

uhm...favorite song until now..thank God i'm ok..wer ok.. i miss hm so much...his dad is kinda leaving dis week i guez... he has a nice dad...nice mom and sister...at last my lola is back...sum1s gona prepare me a gud breakfast... well, we used 2 surf the net alweiz instead of doing our stuffs related to our subjects... im looking forward for a dorm, new stuffs and inspiring start to study hard next semester...shempre third na ko...dpat tlga mas mgconcentrate na ko...and uwi na ulit dad ko..opefully september or oct para big celebration bday nya.. i promise to spend more tym with hm...last yr kc i havnt spend much of my tym..ok lng...at lst msya nman ako...miss ko n dad ko sobra...uhm...my frank txter nnmn ako....kainis.. un lng 4 now....byezzz

Im Officially mizin you

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]
Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

[Verse Two]
All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

[Chorus]

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

hi guys...sori if i havnt blog 4 so long...grbe...wer here in jfh 208...instead of doing our seatwork lhat yta ngffriendster...well sad me ngaun...i dnt wnt to elaborate pa...basta..im oping 4 d best...c yah!!!

when i heard dis song knna lng, i felt touched...uhm...actually i didn't cum to skul...i decided to rest for i havnt sleep well dis past days dahil sa broadcasting..uhm...again i feel depress 4 we fought agen cuz of dt freakin stuff...i didnt sleep well last nyt..i've been thinkin of the best thing i should do now..im not going next to him now...napancn ko kc 2 tyms na nangyari na ako nagreach out sknya...is he rily dat confident enuf to know ima reach out everytime things wud go lyk dis..?:'(...i cnt tell to anybody what i rily feel...i dunno d ryt person hu wud understand me... he txted me last nyt and i didnt reply... "ya,ul nver hir anythn frm me agen...bye baby,ur wrong...bye..." ahhhhhhhhhh did he mean hes over with me?...wut?...i dnt wna think about it nah...daz why im here outside with myself only trying to get over dis feeling...*sigh*....my eyes are swollen...still i went out to breathe...to experience once in my life dat i'm free...khit ako lng mgisa i cud be happy...i need him...he's my life...how cum he doesnt trust me?!!! he shud think of himself..lgi nlng kc ako iniintindi nya...am giving him the best tym he cud have... i shud also hav tym 4 myself now...uhm....evrything wud be alryt...im stronger dan u know...im tougher more dan u think..im still rona hu cud handle dis w/o fear...and hu cud surely fight for this feelings...i wud hav to analyze wat i feel now...if im ready to love whatever it takes or if hes ready to accept me 4 wat i am...i know and God knows i love him so much...:'(

RAINBOW by SOUTHBORDER

Rainbow
SouthBorder

Fallin out, fallin in
Nothin's sure in this world, no no
Breakin out, breakin in
Never knowin what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all

Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we couldn't just understand
Why good things begin then just end
We can really never have it all

But/coz oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby just/please SMILE
Coz i'm always around you
And i'll make you see
How beautiful life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Hittin high, hittin low
Win or lose you should go
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life
Now don't get mad

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear
(And i know that) You'll take each trial
And you'll make it through the storm coz you're strong
My faith in you is clear
So i'll say once again this world is wonderful
And let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

hi...i feel so sad...u juz dnt know...things arent d way iam expecting... sna mging strong me..sna msabi ko ung dpat..ope i can do d ryt things...im so weak..wlang confidence...im near of lusing hope and giving up... plz help me...i dnt wna fall so deep..not now...im not loving neone so deep.but i cn help it...4 sumday he myt curse me to death...aykong mgalit sha...ayoko tlg...sna mtapos n lhat ng iniicp ko..